My Beauty/Lifestyle hacks you HAVE to try!

Hiya girlies

It’s been a while. Sorry. You know when life just gets in the way? Yep that happened. Work has just been busy, I have been SO tired everyday.. and to be honest it was nice to have a few days away from everything blogging-wise. Sometimes it is just needed, right?

ANYWAY.. I am back and all set to blog properly again (I am aware I have said this for the past few weeks… this time I mean it, hehe). I think now that Autumn is peeking it’s little head through.. I am more motivated to post. If you didn’t already know (lets be real.. you all probably do because I haven’t stopped talking about it since the beginning of August, HAHA!), I bloody LOVE Autumn. I even posted about the reasons why I cannot wait for it (shameless plug right here guys).

Now.. onto this post. I am such a huge fan of beauty/lifestyle “hacks”.. tricks that people use to make their lives easier. There are SO many out there.. it can be easy to drown in them and not be sure which ones to use. SO… I thought it would be fun to talk you through MY “hacks” that I use. I have SO many.. but to be honest, I’d be here ALL DAY if I spoke about them all!

My GO-TO Beauty & Lifestyle Hacks!

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Coconut oil really CAN be used for everything.

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You know when people used to say you can do anything with coconut oil.. I was like .. meh sure. BUT .. I thought I would actually try and see how many things I could use it for. And you know what? You are right.. it can literally be used for EVERYTHING… and I thought I would make a good ol’ list of my fave ways to use it, so you can also incorporate coconut oil into your life. Thank me later guys.

Teeth Whitening

You know that age old trick of oil pulling? Yep it works. I know the idea of swishing oil around in your mouth for 15 minutes would be enough to make some of you vom, but it really is worth trying. I’ll be honest, the first time you try it.. it is weird. A trick to make it easier? Instead of putting a spoon of solid coconut oil in your mouth, try melting it first… it will still feel strange, but not THAT strange :). It is something that takes some time to show results, but it is easy enough to add into your routine (just don’t let anyone make you laugh whilst you are swishing away).

Removing Make-up

I discovered how good coconut oil was at removing makeup once when I was lazing around downstairs and noticed a jar of coconut oil on the fireplace (I don’t know what it was doing there either). I literally just scooped some out on my hand and massaged it over my face. I pretty soon had panda eyes and melted foundation on my skin (exactly what happens when I use my cleansing balms). It did an AMAZING job of removing every ounce of makeup.. although it did leave my face feeling a little on the greasier side. I washed my face as normal.. and noticed the difference in how soft my skin felt.

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Overnight Foot Treatment

I have never been one to invest a lot of money into overnight foot treatments… mainly because people rave about the old trick of vaseline and fuzzy socks.WELL… I am not the biggest fan of vaseline (the smell, feel, taste… OK I am joking about the taste, HA).. so I thought I would give coconut oil a go. Guys… it does an AMAZING job at making your feet feel so soft and hydrated. All I do is put LOADS of this stuff over my feet, put socks on over the top and sleep with them. Seriously, try it.

I wanted to list SO many more uses of coconut oil… but I would be here for days. These are just my favourite things to do.. beauty wise. Let me know if you want another post/video specifically on this!

Showering after work/school/uni

I was always one to either shower in the morning (and end up rushing, getting stressed/sweaty, and thinking WHAT WAS THE POINT), or leave showering right before bed (and then usually end up being too tired, thinking LEAVE it, and showering in the morning.. read above). I am sure so many of you can relate.. especially those who work full time. So.. how have I got myself out of this circle? Shower as soon as I get in from work. This might be what a lot of you already do.. but I always wanted to catch up on social media after work, then have my dinner, then catch up on soaps.. and the time would just keep ticking. Now.. I force myself to shower as soon as I get home.. and it helps SO much. I feel so much more awake after work so feel like I can be more productive.. AND I can get my makeup off straight away (and usually do some sort of face mask too).

My go to makeup for getting up late?

We all know the feeling… seeing that you have slept in and literally have 15 minutes to get ready. S***. Showering the evening before comes in handy now doesn’t it? Now.. unfortunately I am not lucky enough to be able to leave the house without looking poorly.. so I have mastered doing my makeup in 5 minutes with my essential items!

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  • Foundation – I have the most pale, dull skin .. so foundation is a MUST
  • Concealer – Dark circles.. biggest problem ever. Concealer = My bestie
  • Mascara – I look dead without mascara
  • Cream Blush – I find it so much quicker and easier.. and it looks so much more natural
  • Highlighter – Makes such a difference to how awake you look – an ESSENTIAL
  • Brows – I didn’t realize how much of a difference these made – now no matter how much I am rushing.. I ALWAYS do my brows.
  • Dark/Bright Lips – unless it is a work day.. then I will stick to lip balm.

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It might sound crazy.. but I suggest testing yourself to see if you can do your makeup in a rush… it can be fun and will prepare you for those rushed mornings 🙂

Concealer application – the RIGHT way

For SO long.. I would apply concealer by just following the shape of my eye.. BUT .. there is a better way to apply it. It is called the triangle trick.. and yep you guessed it.. just apply your concealer in the shape of a triangle under your eyes (the point facing your cheek), and blend as normal. Why is this better? It helps brighten your face, as well as still concealing your dark circles.

The BEST thing for spots/breakouts

I have mentioned this before but I cannot emphasize ENOUGH how good this trick actually works. Savlon or Germolene (an antiseptic cream usually used for cuts/grazes or bites) is what I have been using on my spots for YEARS.. and it has been a lifesaver. As soon as I see a spot coming along.. I apply a thin layer of this, and it reduces any redness/swelling SO quickly. I swear by it.. and even keep some in my handbag for any  emergencies!

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The yummiest face mask EVER

If you know me, you will know how much I LOVE  a good face mask! I also dabble in some DIY projects here and there, so it is no surprise that I am a huge lover of DIY face masks! I have a go-to face mask that is literally good enough to eat (ahem.. I know from personal experience). It is a worth a try guys.. I am so sure you will love it!

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1/2 cup cocoa powder (dark is BEST .. as it has lots of anti-oxidants!)

1/4 cup honey

4 tbsp cream (both double and single are fine)

3 tbsp oats

Mix it all together.. apply onto clean skin, leave on for around 20 minutes and wash off!

SO.. they are my top beauty/lifestyle hacks.. I hope this can help some of you! I LOVED this post so so much.. let me know if you want me to do a fashion one too?

Thank you SO MUCH for reading loves… let me know your thoughts!

LOTS OF LOVE,

Saira

xo

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How To: Get Clear Skin♥

Well HEY THERE sweeties!!♥

I cannot even TELL you how chuffed I am to be writing a blog post!! I will be honest.. I MISS days I don’t get the chance to blog.. I honestly wish I could write a post EVERY DAY!! But you all know there are just NOT enough hours in the day!!! I also LOVE setting days aside where I can spend time catching up on other blogs/YouTube videos… I personally think it is SO important to spend time reading your blogging buddies’ hard work.. remember they probably put JUST as much effort into their posts.. and we ALL know the amazing feeling we get when people LOVE your post!! So go on angels.. SHARE THE LOVE!!

RIGHT loves… I wanted to share a beauty post with you all today WOOP! ‘CAUSE WE ALL LOVE A GOOD BEAUTY POST RIGHT?! So.. something that I am sure is important to probably EVERYONE here is having clear skin!! Now of course.. I know there are SO many factors that can affect how clear your skin is… such as genes, environment, makeup etc… but I wanted to give you a few tips on what has worked for me… and HOPEFULLY some of these will work for you too lovelies!!

My Skin♥

I think it is important to talk a TEENY bit about my skin first (this is always helpful right!?)… so if you have a similar skin type to me.. maybe we can be beauty product twins?

I have combination skin – My t-zone is VERY oily (boo!).. and my cheeks tend to either be normal, or slightly dry. I rarely get breakouts.. fast food (aka the yummiest food ever) is the main cause of any spots I get. Also.. mucky make-up brushes (I know this sounds gross but we are all guilty of it.. yes I am looking at YOU girlies!) give me spots.. I need to learn!

So loves… I have recently REALLY started looking after my skin and got myself into a little routine.. and wanted to mix this up with some tips that YOU can use to get clear skin (hopefully!!!). Sound exciting? Well.. let’s get right on with the post!!!

Have a Proper Night Time Routine♥

Since I have got a good night time routine set up.. I notice ALL the difference in my skin in the morning! Think about it like this loves… you spend most of the day with a face full of make up on (usually), in a stuffy office/shop/classroom… and even your house for that matter… your poor skin will be exposed to all sorts of toxins/nasty stuff.. surely it deserves some extra TLC at night? NOW I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL GIRLIES.. by the time it gets to bed time.. you reach for your makeup wipes that you have on your bedside table, “remove” your makeup… and get straight to sleep. I don’t blame you for doing that either.. you are absolutely shattered, all you want is your bed. I was the same.. BUT I did notice that my skin just looked dull when I woke up… and did not have that “fresh faced” look… so I thought to myself.. “my skin deserves some loving”… and I set aside 15 minutes of my evening to fully focus on my night time routine!

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My Routine♥

First point of action.. thoroughly remove all make-up that is on my face! GET RID OF THOSE MAKEUP WIPES LOVES! Pick yourself up a cream cleanser/micellar water/cleansing balm.. whatever would work best for your skin! I find that the Supernatural Glorious Cleansing Balm works an absolute dream on my skin. It is a oil based product, and I rub the balm between my fingers then rub all over my face and eyes. The result is MELTED MAKEUP ALL OVER YOUR FACE! I then use a warm wash cloth to remove all of the makeup.. it literally just slides off and leaves your skin looking SO refreshed and clean!

I then use my ESSENTIAL PRODUCT.. if you do not have this.. GET IT OR SOMETHING SIMILAR. It has honestly made one of the biggest difference to how clear my skin is ! This dream product is the Magnitone Barefaced Facial Brush… I use it with either Movis Soap from Lush or Clinique’s Foaming Wash. Once this has been done.. I pat my face dry and move on to the next step! MOISTURIZING! Am I the only one who spends a good 5 minutes just giving myself a little facial massage every night? It helps so so much in reducing puffiness, giving a natural glow and lifting and firming the skin! Ooooh come on… who wouldn’t want to do that every night!! You also do not need some fancy, expensive moisturizer.. whatever works for you will be fine!! Hey.. I even use coconut oil on alternate nights (effective AND affordable!).. this is AMAZING! I am honestly thinking of doing a full post/video on coconut oil .. it is a dream product!

That is my little facial routine for the evenings.. trust me loves.. if you incorporate something like this into your evening.. you WILL notice a difference.. give it a go darlings and let me know how you get on!

Scrub A Dub Dub♥

Ahhhhh SCRUBS! In my personal opinion.. there is nothing that makes my skin look AS CLEAR than after I have used a scrub. And it is 100% understandable.. when  you use a scrub, you are basically removing all the dirt/dead skin (ew I know ha!) from your face and revealing clean & refreshed skin! I would recommend using a scrub 1-2 times a week.. It is best to not use it too often as you do not want to over-scrub your poor skin. Trust me loves.. add a scrub to your weekly face routine and notice the difference straight away. I highly recommend the St Ives Apricot Scrub, or the one below from Cylax (this was a very affordable one from a Pharmacy).. it has been a firm favourite of mine for years.. but I know there are SO many amazing ones out there! Let me know if you have any recommendations!

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Make Time for Masks♥

Ahhhh.. face masks… tell me someone who doesn’t love a good face mask.. even my husband and brother have been known to join in on my weekly routine! A face mask once or twice every week works an absolute TREAT for making your skin look clear! I would recommend the Lush ones HANDS DOWN.. they have fresh face masks for every single type of skin out there… AND THEY SMELL GORGEOUS AND ARE ALL NATURAL! Yay! Another FAVE of mine that just leaves my skin looking SO bright & clear is the Rituals Vitality and Energy mask. So darlings.. add in a mask 1-2 times a week.. and notice the difference in your skin! I have also been LOVING the Lush Full of Grace* serum to use after masks… it makes my skin GLOW.

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Clean Those Mucky Brushes♥

So.. as mentioned previously… one thing that gives me spots is if I am lazy and do not clean my make-up brushes! Now… I know we are all so guilty of doing this.. me included.. HOWEVER when I started noticing I was getting spots without changing anything in my routine.. I slowly realized it was those make-up brushes that hadn’t been cleaned…. hmmmm… gross I know! Now.. I ALWAYS try my best to wash them every week.. that way I know they will not affect my skin! I also recommend cleaning your phone on a daily basis, changing your pillow cases every week AND avoid touching your face! Little things like this really CAN make all the difference loves!

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Dealing With Spots♥

Ohhhh…. HOW ANNOYING .. you spend all that time perfecting your skin care routine.. and you STILL get that pesky spot.. grr!! Don’t worry.. I have the perfect thing that you can use!! Now.. this item does work a treat for me.. however EVERYBODY is different so I would not know if it would work in the same way for you (unfortunately!).. but that product is GERMOLENE! Now.. this is actually an antiseptic and anaesthetic cream.. usually used for cuts/bites & burns.. BUT can also be used on spots! Savlon is another similar product.. and I actually keep one in my handbag.. and anytime I ever do get the SLIGHTEST spot.. I put some of this on straight away.. and NO WORD OF A LIE GUYS… the spot has gone down within hours! If I ever notice any spots appear at night.. I apply a thin layer of this and they are almost invisible in the morning! It really is an amazing product that works SO well.. I highly recommend… as it is afforable too, yay! ALSO… avoid touching ANY breakouts you get.. this will only pass on germs to other areas of your face AND MAKE THINGS WORSE.. NOO! Just apply some Savlon/Germolene.. and leave them to heal on their own!

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Water.. And Plenty of It♥

If there is anything you take away with this post.. let it be this step lovelies!!It is probably the easiest, quickest and cheapest way to clear skin… And it is of course.. DRINKING WATER. We all know the benefits of drinking water so I am not even going to go into detail… just do it darlings! Buy yourself a pretty tumbler or bottle (I recommend Primark or B&M for cute ones!).. and set yourself a goal do drink at lease 2 litres a day! You will soon pick up the habit AND notice a massive difference in your skin! Yay!!

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So my loves… these are the steps I take to ensure my skin is as clear as I can get it ! Of course.. there are some miracle products that can cost A TON of money… but really all you need are a few essentials, plenty of glasses of water AND SAVLON FOR YOUR BREAKOUTS hehe. OH.. and try to get plenty of sleep.. I am still working on this though muahaha. 

I really hope this post helped some of you.. I am a massive believer that you do not have to spend a ton of money to get clear skin.. in fact most of it depends on what you put in your body.. so try to avoid takeaways too (these are the devil to me.. I ALWAYS get a few spots on a weekend when I eat naughty things.). Also… I was lucky enough to not suffer from acne when I was younger… but if you have scarring from acne.. try coconut oil or bio oil.. I know SO many people who use it and have noticed a massive difference! Remember darlings.. you know your skin better than anyone.. so try to use products specifically for your skin type… and if you do suffer from quite bad acne.. pop a visit to your doctor who should be able to help!

Thank you SO much for reading lovelies.. Make sure to subscribe to my YouTube channel if you haven’t already! I will see you all in my next one!

Lots of Love,

Saira

xo

 

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Spring Pamper Evening♥

Hiya angels!

I hope you are all VERY well and have had a lovely start to the week! Mine has been AMAZING .. as I have been off work so have really just had the time to RELAX and get things done at a good pace! I have COMPLETELY cleared out and organized my wardrobe (YAY!).. I was honestly quite scared to do this… BUT I was SO chuffed to have finished it within 2 hours (WOO GO ME!)… I think it is honestly one of the BEST feelings when you have a beautifully organised wardrobe…. I CANNOT STOP LOOKING AT IT HEHE!

Right darlings… I have a VERY exciting post for you all… WOOP! One of the fist things I blogged about was my pamper routine … but I did write that during winter so it did feature “wintery” things.. i.e. peppermint & gingerbread body scrubs … SO.. I thought it would be PERFECT to talk to you all about my SPRING THEMED pamper routine! I LOVE changing up the products I use depending on the season… so expect to see lots of fresh/fruity/bright beauty bits in this post! YAY.. lets get on with it!…

Firstly… I like to do this routine maybe 2-3 times a week.. it is so nice to put aside a few hours or so to just make yourself feel relaxed and pampered.. you deserve it after all you hard working lot!

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Face

So.. the first thing I HAVE to do is get rid of the mask of make-up I have been wearing ALL day… and I have been LOVING using the Supernatural Beauty Glorious Cleansing Balm to remove my make-up. It is an oil-based balm (similar to The Body Shop Balm).. and all you need to do is rub some between your fingers and then massage ALL over your face.. you will have SERIOUS panda eyes after.. but it does SUCH an amazing job at removing ALL your makeup!

Then..  I give my skin another cleanse to make sure EVERY bit of makeup is removed .. and I use the Magnitone brush (which is my BABY) with Clinique’s foaming wash. This does such a FAB job of cleansing my skin SO well.. BUT my skin does feel slightly dry after… so maybe my dry skinned girlies will be best staying away from this!

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Bath♥

No pamper routine would be complete without some sort of Lush product involved! So .. get your bath running… and get your Spring Lush products ready to use! I have been LOVING the Bunch of Carrots bubble bar (HOW bloody adorable are they!?)… and also the Think Pink bath bomb… both these make your bath the PRETTIEST pink colour and just make it smell SO sweet!

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Before I actually get in my bath, I like to wash my hair with the Coco Loco shampoo from Lee Stafford (yep you guessed it… it smells like coconuts.. yum!) and then apply the deep conditioning mask! THEN… I am ALL set to jump in my bath! I like to use the Bouncy Bunny shower jelly from Lush on my body after to just make my skin feel SO soft! It is literally the CUTEST thing ever! AND it smells like chocolate oranges.. can you think of anything better? Nope.. me neither.

Moisturize

Once I get out of the bath… it is time to MOISTURIZE! Now… I would be the biggest lover of vanilla/chocolaty scented body butters (my go to was the Palmers cocoa butter in the tub.. IT SMELT LIKE BROWNIES).. BUT for Spring time I like to use something lighter and with more of a fresh scent.  My FAVE as been The Body Shop Pink Grapefruit body butter.. as you can imagine it has a citrussy scent AND it feels SO beautiful on the skin! On alternate days.. I use coconut oil for a VERY intense treatment… every time I use this I wake up with the SOFTEST skin ever. As you can imagine.. this leaves you feeling QUITE oily… so I would do this an hour or so before bed so it has time to soak in properly. ALSO… don’t neglect your poor hands guys!! I have been LOVING The Body Shop Petal Soft Hand Cream.. it really has the MOST perfect scent for Spring and leaves your hands feeling SO soft! I then moisturize my face with the Avon Truly Radiant Night Serum, which makes my skin SO glowy.. and on alternate days I will use coconut oil!

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PJ’s

RIGHT once we are all pampered out.. it is time to put on your FAVE PJ’s… now as you know I am the BIGGEST lover of fuzzy pj’s.. BUT unfortunately in the Spring these can make you feel SLIGHTLY sweaty.. SO you need to get yourself some light pj’s .. if they are flora/pastel.. even better!

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So lovelies.. that is how to have the PERFECT spring pamper evening… LOTS of fresh, citrussy scents and plenty of florals & pastels… what reminds you of Spring? Do you change up your pamper routine once Spring comes around? Let me know darlings!!

I really hope you enjoyed this post angels.. I am having the BEST time during my week off… It is honestly exactly what you need sometimes.. I am SO excited to be going to a Lush event tonight too (eeeek!!)… I will hopefully be meeting some bloggers AND getting to learn more about Lush.. cannot wait!!

OK lovelies.. look after yourselves… enjoy the long Easter weekend.. and I will see you all in my next one!

Lots of Love,

Saira

xo

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In Love With: Coco Loco!

Happy Monday lovelies!

Hope you had an amazing weekend! Did any of you get up to anything fun on Valentine’s? Me and Hubs don’t really celebrate Valentine’s anymore – however, this didn’t stop hubs from surprising me with flowers, a balloon and chocolates (it was so unexpected but so sweet at the same time!). I will give you an update of what I got up to on the weekend before getting on to the actual post!

So… Saturday I was up SUPER early to do some shopping – where I picked up the most perfect denim pinafore (something I have been wanting to buy for the LONGEST time – I will be featuring in a blog post too!) and also a few gifts for my dad as it is his birthday today! Happy Birthday!♥ I then went back home and took some blog photos as THE LIGHTING WAS SO PERFECT! The rest of the day was just spent with family! Then .. Sunday I had a quick rearrange of my room (I get SO bored with my room set up.. anyone else the same?.. I cannot be alone surely hehe!)… took some outfit pictures, then went for a long walk in a nearby country house, had a takeaway, came home, had a quick pamper night and then OFF TO BED! I honestly love making the most of my weekends .. as I work full time I am absolutely SHATTERED when I come home. I am thinking of writing a post about how I fit in blogging whilst working..let me know if you would like me to?

Crazy Over Coco Loco♥

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ANYWAYS LOVES.. should we get on with this post? So.. I was recently kindly sent some products to try from NBPR.. who are the PR team for Lee Stafford products*! I was honestly SO excited when I received a hot pink package in the post – which can I add also smelt ABSOLUTELY STUNNING! Now.. I have been such a massive lover of Lee Stafford products.. a few years ago before I wore my hijab, I was OBSESSED with their “Poker Straight” range! Since I have been wearing my hijab.. I have definitely neglected my poor hair! I would just use whatever shampoo/conditioner was in the shower.. but I definitely noticed the toll on my scalp/hair (boo!). My hair would be SO DRY … and I started to suffer from a dry scalp :(.

So…. I received the shampoo, conditioner AND hair treatment from Lee Stafford’s fabulous Coco Loco range! As you can probably tell from the name, ALL THESE PRODUCTS contain coconut oil, which I am sure we all know is AMAZING for dry hair! 

The actual packaging of this range itself is SO ADORABLE… It is SO girly and pretty, and definitely looks amazing in my shower! OH MY do not even get me started on the scent.. it is literally like a tropical paradise in a bottle. Is it just me, or does anything coconut scented remind you of being on a beachy holiday? Let me tell you about my first experience using it… and also how it has helped my poor hair!

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First Impressions

:The shampoo itself smells GORGEOUS… I used it on my hair twice to give it a really good clean! It lathers up SO nicely, and I could just tell how soft it made my hair straight away! I decided to use the hair treatment on my first go. The consistency of the treatment was VERY thick (as you would expect with treatments!).. and I left it on my hair for around 10 minutes. As soon as I washed it out, I could feel how soft and nourished my hair felt! The smell also lingered on my hair whilst it was drying! I always leave me hair to dry naturally, and usually it would feel quite rough and start to frizz quite a lot! The day I used this shampoo/conditioner, my hair felt SO SOFT and did not frizz at all! I was also able to smell the GORGEOUS coconut scent the day after!

A Week After

After a week of using this range, I have definitey noticed a HUGE difference in how my hair/scalp feels! I don’t have that awful “rough” texture to my hair, and my scalp just feels so much healthier! My hair in general is so much softer and constantly smells of coconut!

Overall Impressions

The packaging of this range is absolutely stunning, the scent is GORGEOUS, and it has definitely made my hair feel so fabulous! I highly recommend it to girlies who suffer from dry hair.. I am not sure how this range would work on those who have slightly oilier hair.. maybe it will be too nourishing/moisturizing? It is definitely perfect for the upcoming summer months – who doesn’t want to have hair that smells like coconuts? It is also amazing for  winter, as the hair treatment does such a fabulous job in nourishing your hair! It is my go to treatment for pamper evenings!

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Here are all the links for the shampoo, conditioner and hair treatment! It is also available to pick up from Boots & Superdrug!

♥Shampoo♥

♥Conditioner♥

♥Hair Treatment♥ 

Hope you liked this review angels? Have you ever tried anything from the Coco Loco range? If not.. I highly recommend it.. it is SO AFFORDABLE too!

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So.. there we have it! My impressions of this FABULOUS RANGE.. Hope you enjoyed it! Let me know what you got up to on the weekend! I am all set for a very busy week at work… however I have some time off next week which I cannot WAIT for.. it is definitely long overdue! I will see you in my next one darlings!

Lots of Love,

Saira

xo

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*Items were sent to me for review purposes. All opinions are my own